So, I'm in the process of buying my first ever car on my own. See, the car I've got I leased. This was mainly about commitmentphobia and a lack of liquid cash for a down-payment. And did I mention the commitmentphobia? But part of this whole Operation Financial Freedom thing in part had to do with the fact that I felt like a loser for leasing when really I know it makes more sense to buy and to just take care of the car whilst driving it into the ground. But dude, this is totally a scary enterprise. Did I mention the whole fear of commitment business?
At any rate, what makes me hilarious is that I am managing to do 99% of this whole thing over the phone. Because I'm a loser who feels more comfortable doing it that way. And I've got this awesome sales lady who's working for me, who's not trying to sell me bullshit (probably because I called her completely certain and having done my homework) and so it's likely I'm not getting the super-best deal in the world, but I'm certainly not getting the worst.
And I shall have a cute wee little car that gets excellent gas mileage!
You know, I suck with this adult shit. I hate doing it. I have fantasies that someday I shall happen upon a life partner who will do all of these things for me so that I can focus on more important things, like kittens and lazing about and inventing recipes and rereading the Harry Potter books over and over and over again. Or if not a life partner, that I will come into a grand sum of money so that I can have a business manager who does this all for me. Because you know what? I find this sort of thing totally stressful and not empowering in the slightest. I mean, it should be empowering, right? Don't you think? But no, it is totally not.
I think it's that I'm basically, deep down, an irresponsible person. Or rather, I'd like to be an irresponsible person, but I know that to be irresponsible is stupid. So I'm basically responsible but I'm not terribly... I don't have great acumen with money. If I could just not think about money - just totally not think about it - I'd be a happy lady. It's so funny: I really admire people who aren't like this, and yet somehow it is not in my nature to change. Hmmm.
In other news, you know what is very, very hard for me? When somebody tells me a piece of news that has nothing at all to do with me, tells me not to tell anybody about it (which obviously I'm going to, because dude, we all know that I can't keep things to myself), but then also tells me not to blog about it, which I'd never have considered doing in the first place had the person not told me I wasn't allowed, and so now I've got a burning desire deep down in my soul to blog this thing that's not even mine to tell and that I'd never have even wanted to blog about anyway.
Some people. Sheesh. :)
Edited to add: Ok, so I was willing to give Dealer #1 the benefit of the doubt throughout the day, but by our most recent conversation (in which I felt like I was being played), I decided that I needed to do some shopping around. So I called up Dealer #2. Smarmy Car Salesman #2 seems very, very motivated to take business away from Dealer #1. Now, SCS #2 also comes off as smarmier, but per our most recent conversation, it's looking like he's also offering to give me what I want at about 3K less than SCS #1, who initially seems less smarmy but who also, I feel, is trying to screw me. So. I'm meeting with SCS #2 tomorrow morning, and depending on what happens there, I will potentially see SCS #1 on Saturday, instituting a competition for my car-purchasing dollars! I do not feel excited and financially empowered by all of this, but I do certainly love feeling like I'm wheeling and dealing and like playing the game of trying to get the lowest possible price. What's ridiculous about this whole thing is that I'm on the market for a bottom-end car, so there's not really much room with price in terms of negotiations. In other words, this wheeling and dealing that I'm doing ultimately is sort of meaningless, compared with wheeling and dealing that others might do. But so now, it's time to get ready for the teaching.
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