Because what was I putting off? What was I worried about? I've already got 3 solid pages written, two further pages in progress, and I've yet to talk about the scene that is the centerpiece of my paper or to incorporate any criticism. I might be the world's biggest idiot. Especially because I'm really enjoying writing this and it's just flowing from me as if fully formed, totally painlessly. I guess that's what happens when you take a year off from conferencing, and when you are actually energized about research. Who knew? I haven't felt this since I was a young lass in my first year on the tenure track!
ETA: There is a beginning, a middle, and an end, and I don't think it sucks mightily, although it's probably not my best work. I don't think I care. And it may be under 20 minutes, but doesn't everybody love a person who gives a paper that clocks in under 20 minutes? I believe that they do. So. Tomorrow, I grade, and I meet with students, and then I am FREE! FREE! I feel like some conference energy may be exactly what I need right now. Exactly.
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