I just permanently deleted evidence of a rude comment that a person left for the previous post and then himself/herself deleted. So in other words, I got the benefit of seeing it because all the comments here are forwarded to my email, but none of you did. All that was left in the comment thread was "this post has been deleted by the author." It annoys me when those are left to clutter up a comment thread, so I deleted it permanently.
I write about this for a variety of reasons. One, because I really do not understand what the benefit of such harassment is for the harasser. Two, because it's this sort of thing that makes it impossible to have honest conversations about ambition in this profession. I'm a pretty stubborn person, and as much as this sort of shit gets to me, it doesn't stop me from writing, although it has quieted me down for brief periods in the past (just check out how infrequently I blogged and with what little substance after the whole Unicorn Gumdrop Kerfuffle). But imagine if I weren't that stubborn? I suspect one reason a lot of these conversations don't happen is because people don't want to deal with this sort of shit that comes out of the woodwork, and I don't blame them. I don't want to deal with this shit either. So I've noticed there are a number of new commenters to the blog lately, and I figured that this was a good time to just put it out there that while I don't expect everybody to support me when I post about something or to agree with everything I say, I do expect that people contribute to the conversation and that they don't treat me like crap. And I'd say that's not too much to ask.
2 years ago